Dark Thoughts of the Rainbow Warrior

uncorpsjuste:

The thing that upsets me the most about being poly is the fact that I don’t feel special to my partner(s). Since they all have other partners, it feels to me like I’m just another person they spend time with. I’m not saying that these relationships aren’t meaningful or don’t have depth; quite the…

I’ve definitely felt this way too. It could just be the newness of the relationships. As time goes on, you might have more of a special feeling for one or more partners.

Honestly, I think some people who practice polyamory would say an ideal is to not have one partner become more important or special than another. Wanting to be the special person might have to do with you wanting specific types of dynamics in your relationships.

Some people do practice having primary and secondary partners. Having one main person that gets priority over other relationships. Maybe you should explore this and see if you are interested in a relationship like that.