Dark Thoughts of the Rainbow Warrior

Agreed. I’ve always thought that you were gorgeous.

What?! I thought I was gorgeous? I’m so flattered!

dinksdinksdinks:

darkcloudtherainbowwarrior:

I’m worried about it.

I’m only on 50mg a week of T, but it might make my hair fall out. I just don’t know what will happen.

On my left and right temples I have really thin hair. It’s most notable when its long. Which it is right now. It freaks me out to think about my hair thinning or falling out. My hair is sooo thick, except at those two points.

Solution to this is to keep my hair short. But at the moment I’ve grown it out because I think I look less threatening with longer hair. This is merely for getting jobs. Once I snag a job, this shit is gone and I’ll feel much better I’m sure.

As for now, I’ll just fret in the mirror trying to make it look fuller than it actually is…

Goodness, ALL OF THIS. 

My hairline is changing (which is expected) so the hair closest to the front of my head has been thinning out in certain spots during this reshaping process. Even though I know this was a part of the deal with T, it still has me really paranoid because I have a really sexy thick amazing head of hair really like my hair. 

I’m constantly rubbing the top of my hair and comparing thickness/texture all over my scalp. 

I knew that T came with plenty of pros and cons, but its a completely different ballgame when those cons start affecting you in some way. 

Yes, yes yes! I’m constantly rubbing my hair too! I get this was part of the package, but I too, love my hair.

Random suggestion that may be totally useless, but if you’re down with cosmetics, what about using a brow pencil / mascara brush on those areas to mask the thinness til you can get back to your (if yr tumblr pic is any help) SUPER HAWT short hairs?

Hmm, I’m not sure. I don’t use cosmetics. It’s something to consider for sure.

And you are too sweet.

I’m worried about it.

I’m only on 50mg a week of T, but it might make my hair fall out. I just don’t know what will happen.

On my left and right temples I have really thin hair. It’s most notable when its long. Which it is right now. It freaks me out to think about my hair thinning or falling out. My hair is sooo thick, except at those two points.

Solution to this is to keep my hair short. But at the moment I’ve grown it out because I think I look less threatening with longer hair. This is merely for getting jobs. Once I snag a job, this shit is gone and I’ll feel much better I’m sure.

As for now, I’ll just fret in the mirror trying to make it look fuller than it actually is…

Tomorrow I’m going to take it in and pay $50 that I kind of don’t have to keep up with maintenance.

I’ve decided that if I don’t get any job bites in the next two weeks, I have to get whatever job I can. So if that’s a minimum wage job at a fast food joint, so be it. More likely than not, I’ll hit up grocery stores, big retailers and small shops.

Tonight, I’m going to enjoy Oakland and the beautiful queers that inhabit it by being a wallflower at a Femme Conference fundraiser.

lleno-de-tierra:

I’m going. Are you?

Now I am!

cheshiregrin52:

This is not a post directed at any particular people within the trans* community/groups or any such thing. This is just my thoughts on an event I have seen take place on several occasions. Why do we as a community have a tendency to police a person’s transition? It’s as if we get into our heads that there are these very concrete steps that a person must start taking/plan in the immediate future to take for their transition or we start doubting that person’s trans* identity. If a person is not out at work or school, has not told their family or friends, has not set a date to begin taking hormones, made plans to begin saving for surgery, and what have you, and doesn’t plan to for some time, we doubt them. I’ve seen people ‘call out’ others on their sincerity, say they are taking up the trans* label to be cool/for attention. We throw that phrase around,  that “You’re not actually trans*, you’re just jumping on the wagon andyou doing so makes it harder for us to be taken seriously/is making us look bad.”

That last part is, what I think, it all comes down too. If a person is non-binary, if a person goes about their transitional process in a way that is not straight forward, or anything really that doesn’t match up with our ideas on how this shit all works, we feel threatened. We feel threatened, and often times, we ‘attack’ the perceived threat to our security. It’s a common, human reaction. But where have we heard that before though? That bullshit line, “You are making us look bad” or “Your existance makes it harder for us to be taken seriously”? Some groups within the LGB communities in regards to the T is a relevant example.

Perhaps some people are “faking” their trans* status. My stance on it, is so what? It does not matter. Someone trying that label on or even blatantly lying does not mean that all of our identities are suddenly less valid because of it. Anyone who tries to use that as an excuse to dismiss your own identity is a fool and has poor logic. However, the potential existance of ‘liars/fakes/etc’ does not give us an excuse to run around declaring certain people insincere, because we have no real way of knowing. Witchhunts always end badly and don’t accomplish a thing. We have no way or right to judge whether or not a person is ‘legitimately’ trans*, because we all have different, personal takes on what being trans* is. Worst of all, what if we declare someone a ‘fake’ and we are wrong? That person could very likely be struggling with being trans*, cuz this shit ain’t a cake-walk, and some ‘defender of trans* honor!’ done goofed and called them a liar? Society in general already acuses us of being liars and fakes, and self doubt and insecurity due to that is a painful thing to deal with. We are the last people who should be throwing that horseshit around, especially since as a community we should be trying to support one another through all of this. Otherwise, it will take even longer for us to heal as a group and as individuals.

That is just my opinion on the matter. Sorry if it was rather rambly. lol.

They are a Hardcore band from Sacramento! Wow, who is the wardrobe person.

Like I’m thinking about how much I like eating pussy while high. But if I did it right now I’d do it without a dental dam. I’m so reckless.

But like seriously, I want to eat some pussy.

I just ate a shit ton of candy and I have a cavity. Normally my mouth would be hurting so bad. Its just a numb overall feeling in my face. This is the best.

I’m so impressed with my typing abilities, while high.

chasingdevon:

retch-a-sketch:

~=*(((Lazy Queer Summer Wish Fulfillment Lyfestyle)))*=~

How I picture myself, really…

haha, this is me

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fagglet:

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fagglet

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adarkcongregation:

trubr0wn:

blackcurator:

eating a polish food at a polish restaurant ran by a polish owners = cultural exchange.

wearing ceremonial japanese robes for a fashion shoot and calling it an asian dress = cultural appropriation.

buying a handmade dreamcatcher from an ojibwe artisan to support indigenous artists = cultural exchange

buying a fake mass-produced ‘dreamcatcher’ and ‘dreamcatcher jewelry’ from urban outfitters = cultural appropriation

accepting and wearing a sari as a gift from a close desi friend = cultural exchange

wearing saris, kameez and bindis to ‘appreciate’ our culture = cultural appropriation

basically, it isn’t hard to tell the difference. at all. if you think it is, you’ve got some learning to do.

accepting a sugar skull as a gift from someone who celebrates Dia de los Muertos and explains what it is = cultural exchange

painting your face in a sugar skull for Halloween with your friends because it’s c00l = cultural appropiation

but most of the time I kind of don’t give a fuck. I don’t care to educate others and rarely see any gains from talking about it, aside from the occasional cosigning with other people who actually get it.

I feel my politics lately have been one of apathy. I just don’t care lately and I don’t want to put up with people who don’t understand where I’m coming from.